i didn't fall off the face of the earth

i know it seems as if i haven't written in a while, which is true, but to explain myself, i have been on the road with john for a week, and on top of that i have been one busy little bee....

i should be sleeping as of now, i have an early day ahead of me, mof it starts in a few hours but i figured i would write before i conked out.

my week with john was nice. it was odd spending time with my husband like normal people get to do, but overall i think it was worth it and we got to bond (which is code for have lotts of sex without child interuption).

so my 21st (with one year experience) birthday is coming up and i'm less then thrilled. possibly my standards are impossibly high, or i'm just unable to become fulfilled with whatever accomplishments i create (god i'm more like my father then i know) but i'm dissapointed that i've gotten this far without doing something incredibly stupid to get myself killed and have nothing to show for it....

ok ok...i am only 22 and i own my own business, yes, i know, and i have published my own book...and i have a husband and a gorgeous son and blah blah blah, but i figured by now i'd ATLEAST have a pulitzers or peace prize under my belt...and i do i? nope (ha, ha)

well....i guess that just means i'll have to work harder....

everyone keeps asking what i want and they are being rather sneeky to my annoyance since i'm not really adapted to the whole, surprise thing...john has been saving money to get me a present, but he's clueless, so he told me. my mother, i don't know what the woman is up to, and now my cusion tells me she's coming up for labor day, which is odd, when they have had many opportunity, yet haven't, and now all of a sudden they are visting. my mother is up to something as well, i just can't quite put my finger on it. i hope it isn't a suprise party....or a surprise period... when i was younger i would build myself up only to be let down.

besides, i don't need anything...all that doting and excessive attention and cooing makes me feel weird....

i've wanted the same thing every year since i was 16.... a bottle of (red) aleze, chinese food (shrimp and brocolli), and peace and quite for atleast an hour...

i don't think that's much to ask for, but i never get it lol. (i got a 6000 dollar sweet 16 instead, attention? yea, can you say claustraphobia??) anyway, here's a wedding invitation sample i made to let you know i'm still actually working, i have a few layouts, but i'm lazy and can't find the camera cord. so enjoy <3>

i like this, simple, yet sophisticated, printer is on the fritz, so now wording samples....

www.babystepsscrapbooking.com