mind you it's 439 am and my son is "whining" for his crib, he's been up for a good hour or so now is changed, feed, and has been held for half an hour, and the way things work in my house.... this is suppose to be mommy time. mommy also hasn't gotten laid in two weeks so mommy is sucking on cigs like they're her best friend.
i tried that whole self soothing crap for a little while and i'm convinced that those same marsha brady mommies who gently patted their backs, and tiptoed out of the room to a screaming son also starred in valley of the dolls.
in other news, because i'm absolutely sick of places like cafemom.com and other websites who totally emcompass what i hate about america's idealation on mother hood and what it's suppose to be like me and a very cool lady named jen are starting our own kid free mommy website where we can talk guilt free about cosmo's, how much being a mom can suck sometimes, sex, or sometimes crappy husbands, and the works. these websites never talk about the downfalls of having children....don't get me wrong, i love my son, i love everything about him, although sometimes i wish he was a puppy....it's just there is this sterotype placed upon women with children, and other women who have children and who look put together but are on the verge on a mental meltdown judge other women who aren't as put together, and it's just a viscious cycle.
being a mother is hard work, it is a job in the biggest sense of the word, you are completly and utterly responsible for raising a well brought up, normally functioning human being, and if they turn into a rapist, or a murder, or the works....it's all your fault. it's a big burden to bear. i think so far i've done a good job, myson is healthy and growing well....he's smart for his age, and learning things faster then other children....i devote a large amount of time and affection to him, but my life is more then being just a mother....
dr phil said it best when he asked a woman who had given up her dreams to devote her life to her children if she was prepared to tell her children how to give up their dreams, because all they had tolook forward to was being a mother, and after that their lives meant nothing more.
anyway i'm babbling...
in other news, business is going well http://www.babystepsscrapbooking.com/
and amazon.com only has 2 copies left of my book confessions of a guinea pig...whatever the hell that means....
plus my jewish phych says i should expect a sudden rush of chutzpah in the month of september(my birth month) so that's good....
and for my fashion fix of the day....i'm in love with christian louboutin's peicw peep-toe-heels, very awsome, very bright very me....(this picture isn't in the color i want)
alternatively if you don't have 1300 to dropon a pair of shoes you can always get these from target for 25
deja vu much?anyway just remember if you get a bright colored anything always pick quality over price, because these are pieces you can use over and over again and they look cheap if you buy them cheap.
enough for now, it's 531
<3
m.s.
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