sweaty apartment. hot body.

it's not as horrendous as it was yesterday. yesterday all inanimate objects in my house were sweating profusely from the humidity. i would turn on the air, but i don't have central cooling and heating, and the best my huge yet completly worthless window unit can do is cool down the livingroom to the point of freezing, and quickly heat up as soon as i turn it off. which to me, it just seems like a viscious cycle to get up, get down, get up get down over and over again. you walk to the dinning room and it's like walking into a brick wall of heat. i don't particuraly care. as long as the baby is nice and cool with his own personal fan i can deal....besides it's only a few months till we get out of this shit apartment with all it's trashy ass people and get started with the next chapter of our lives. plus, another paranoid part of me is afraid of a high electricity bill we can't pay...we are already behind on one carnote and the cell, not our fault, but none the less, the economy is falling and we are paying in the process.
it makes me laugh when i hear bush supporters say the economy is great and blah blah blah...so why is it my husband works outside of michigan as a truck driver and cannot bring the paychecks we need? why is it other trucking companies are asking his company for loads because they barely have enough to keep their company afloat.
here's my theory.....bare with me now....
truck drivers deliver goods....companies buy the goods for truck drivers to deliver....if the companies don't have the money to buy goods then the truck drivers don't drive and don't make any money, which thus proves my point that we're going to hell in a handbasket.
if there are a total of 12 trucks sitting in the same state because the company has no loads to give me them for more then 12 hours....there is deffinitly something wrong. this should be a good time for truck drivers, it's the summer, and closing on fall, which is the time most companies begin to get their winter products in, but our checks have been less then noteable.
in other news, john won't be home this weekend, which isn't really surprising, i've gotten use to seeing him maybe 2-3 times a month. it's like being a single mom, except i don't have a "traditional" job, and i get paid for it..
well, i'm off to make cookies for this stupid picnic tomorrow. i shouldn't do shit, but it may be the only time i eat all day (i'm not very good at the whole making food when i'm hungry thing yet)
ttfn
m.s.
ps
somone send me a cosmo